December 24, 2014

Hi fellow losers, I was kind of a special ED kid in kindegarten-2nd grade, soon i started realizing how easy school is so 3rd to 6th grade i was like the smartest kid in the A classes and i knew pretty much every thing in class.Well every year of school i had a behaviour problem i couldnt control my weirdness and plus i kinda got ADHD ive been in trouble as long as i can remember.Anyway 100s of times ive got my house called, conferences, special programs for gifted kids and shit.Im the 2nd child out of 5 kids and my mom never really cared much about me.When i did good and got awards every month and shit it still seemed like i was just 2nd compared to my big brother.So i could get hundreds on state tests back in 4th grade and i would get a used psp game to play on his old psp while he had a new psp and she payed for his new game,also he was in john jay college at the time trying to be a lawyer and he got a 70 on some test.I wondered how does he deserve the new stuff?Anyway im 15 now and 3 years back he failed at everything and became a smoking/drinking failure at life and still living at home at 21 with his parents and his siblings.He always had jealousy and anger issues so he broke like alot of stuff and hes got like 30 police reports on him.Well my dad had a court order to get a order of protection or something like that so he no longer lives here.Now every day since he calls my mom for rent money and shit and she actually pays it,one time she payed 700 and another time she payed 300 for his different apartments hes been in(he gets kicked out sometimes).IDK WHY! hes better than me!!!

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in 6th grade i did horrible and failed every class and the school didnt want me so i was homeschooled for 2 years and returned to public school in 9th grade,it was just awkward seeing some of the kids who got me kicked out.Anyway back then when i was 7 i wanted a ps3 sooo bad and it was like 500 or sumthin so my mom said NO!Yet my brother got a Bmx bike for a little over that price.I NEVER GOT A PS3 YET!Instead i had to play mineraft on a phucked up PC while my mom had a 3K DESKTOP AND SHE HAD A 1,500$ i7 LAPTOP!

I DONT GOT ENOUGH TIME FOR ALL THE DETAILS BUT I SAID SOME MAIN PARTS OF THE STORY

I never got a ps3 for 7 years of begging so all this year i begged for a ps4,even last year my pops promised he would get me it when it comes out if i passed my regents,AND I DID! Now its christmas eve and I prayed all year,and my parents say i dont deserve one.

I JUST WANNA KILL MYSELF MY LIFE IS WORTH NOTHING BYE!

all i wanted was a ps4 with gta 5 to play with my friends,now when they ask me what i got for christmas im gonna say the same as last year NOTHING!

AND IM NOT SPOILED OR ANYTHING ITS NOT THE PS4 ITS THE PRINCIPLE BEHIND IT AND MY FAMILY DISOWNS ME!

BYE FUCKING WORLD!