September 19, 2019

I have been working for the temp agencies for years because I can't hold a regular job. And I'm 33 years old. Every regular job I've had I've been fired from. Mostly this is due to behavior related to lack of sleep. The only hours I can work are from 3-11 p.m., but few jobs seem to offer that on a consistent schedule. They might have you working nights but they also have you work a few days too, and I can't do that. I always have to work from 3-11 p.m. or I get very sick and sleep deprived. At one of my day jobs I survived on 3 hours of sleep a night for three weeks. I started to feel like I was getting brain damage from lack of sleep. I began stuttering and was unable to speak, slurring my words. I was recently fired from a day job, for the 13th time. So I am back at the temp agency again. But the temp agency isn't offering that much work right now, except one graveshift cleaning job once a week. So I harldy have any money. My car broke down and will cost $1,000 to fix but I only have $500 and winter is coming. I live in a tiny, cramped one bedroom apartment. And because of brain damage from lack of sleep right now, I feel extremely flattened out and I am only able to connect or communicate with friends who also have a mood disorder and live a low-level life. I have to ride the train for hours to see these friends because of the no car situation. I also have to ride the train for hours to get to work and to bum rides from coworkers. Sometimes I am almost left stranded with no way home and I have to bribe or pay people to take me home or take an Uber. But I am sleeping better now. Now that I don't have much of a job, just a vague night job that pays me enough money to keep up with my utility bills and to go to the movies with my boyfriend once a week. I am panicked about the no car situation and winter coming up. I need to find a longer term temp job. I am on SSI for my sleep difficulties as it is a legitimate disability, so my income is limited. I do what I can to make more money because nobody can survive on SSI. 

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August 13, 2015

And he said no, even though it was a FREE dinner. I work ten hours a week and am too ugly for a husband. I live at home at age 29.

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  1. lowerlife lowerlife said: Its ok - I had a great husband divorced him paying for 10 years - I been in ur boat many times. Your not 2 ugly - there is someone for everyone - don't give up. that guy could feel the same way u feel right now. Men take a lot of crap too.
  2. Whatitdo Whatitdo said: Shoot. I'm age 99 and the person I'm sleeping with won't even accept a free case of a million dollars from me!!!
  3. Whatitdo Whatitdo said: Shoot. I'm age 99 and the person I'm sleeping with won't even accept a free case of a million dollars from me!!!
  4. LexLoser LexLoser said: Incase you might need someone to talk to (kamza435@Gmail.com)
  5. HopelesslyWeird HopelesslyWeird said: If a guy is sleeping with you then you probably aren't too ugly for a husband. Why get a husband anyways unless you find the right guy. Plenty of women get husbands because they think that it "makes" them and then they get divorced.


June 4, 2015

Didn't want to introduce me to his friends. Fucked me but wouldn't sleep over. Wouldn't admit to dating me despite fucking me. I make $50 a week.

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June 4, 2015

Didn't want to introduce me to his friends. Fucked me but wouldn't sleep over. Wouldn't admit to dating me despite fucking me. I make $50 a week.

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May 14, 2015

I'm such a loser because I can only find guys who want to sleep with me and then nothing more. When I always say I deserve more than being stuck on a Motel 6 couch and fucked they tell me I'm not worth it. There are some girls you fuck and some you marry and you're just the fucking kind, they say to me. But if I'm so ugly and horrible, why do they bother to fuck me at all? Why don't they just get lost?


  1. ihatemyself80 ihatemyself80 said: They are only telling you that to make themselves feel better about what they are doing to you. I did this repetitively until I found myself in an abusive marriage out of desperation. Please stop. Say no to sex, until you have a true mental connection.


May 6, 2015

Okay, so I'm not a true loser because I managed to write a book. But ever since I read about a writer with writer's block, I suddenly developed it. I did a lot of research at the library today and checked out fifteen books. The stack was so heavy I fell down in the library trying to carry them all. An edlerly gent shouted, "Be a lady!" at me, inexplicably. I have all this information but I just can't finish it. Tomorrow I will be at my side job, catering instead. I never thought I'd still be a catereress at nearly twenty-nine years of age. I work so sporadically my income was $9,000 last year. Stuck in loserdome. How hard is it to add an afterword to your 157 page manuscript? I need to back up my book with scientific facts, that's why. And the logistics of it aren't working out.

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  1. IamUrSoul IamUrSoul said: Try harder, i know u can do it. U have written a book which is very difficult to do so. it does not matter what u were but what matters is what u become.


January 21, 2015

My boss, she usually calls around eleven and I slept until 11:58 this morning, missing her call. She called and told me that particular job was full and already given to someone else. If I had called her earlier, I could have had the job. Since the job pays $32 a night and comes with a free meal, I could have something better than nothing. Last night I attended a focus group and got free food as well, a step ahead in loserdome only the size of a butterfly flapping its wings. The reason I never want to wake up or get out of bed in the morning is I don't want to see my snoopy neighbors who report on my latest gossip and lack of a steady job. 


  1. sadeye sadeye said: u r hero
  2. LexLoser LexLoser said: That is such a Loser thing to do. This deserves Loser of the week. :)
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January 13, 2015

I tried to give him a ride in the snowstorm after the date and he said, "No thanks, I'd rather walk." It was obvious he didn't want me to know his address.

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  1. LexLoser LexLoser thinks you're a loser
  2. fukkface fukkface said: Maybe he was gay, your obviously desperate and it probably shows, I know if it was me even if I weren't into the girl I'd still try to score if it looked easy enough.
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January 6, 2015

As losers, we must wallow in our misery and comiserate on it. I managed to get dressed and get out of bed today.

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December 30, 2014

I ordered her meds off calpetpharm.com and they never came, there was a screw up with the pharmacy but I never checked on them. My dog died the next day. I took her to the vet only once and did not keep up with regular appointments. So her lungs filled with water and she died. I tried to revive her with oxygen but was too lazy to hold it to her nose for more than six hours and I went back to sleep and she died.

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