May 4, 2015

I thought i was at least good enough, thought i was of value, at least something, but countless rejection, always questioned, always undermined, overlooked, passed up, turns out its me, just someone who thought wrong, someone who had the head up their ass and didnt even know it. I would watch the world and everything thats happening in it, and thoought is was soo messed up, that i knew something, but i have been proven wrong, beating down and shown what i really am. There right, i cant even prove my self value, because someone smarter than me, better than me in so many ways can show me otherwise. i understand hate now, its a self-defense mechanism to protect, but for me to hate anyone, when i realize im the problem, is pointless and irrelavent. If i had the courage, i would do the world a favor and rid of myself, but i cant even do that. So what do i do? just sit behind a screen, where its a little safe. Cant really talk to anyone, and i understand, there too busy doing great things to be brought down or concern themselves with meaningless shit like this, like me.

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  1. LexLoser LexLoser said: Harsh reality. Send me an email if you need someone to talk to, I know I do. Kamza435@Gmail.com


June 2, 2014

I am really glad i found this site, i can find people who feel like i do everyday when im alive and out n about. I dont want to get into a contest of who the biggest loser, cause knowing me, i would fail at that too. I was looking to find people who are like minded as how im feeling and talk about things. I know how shity my life is, and from what read, im not alone, i dont want to keep posting things, other people can stumble on here and read it and just make fun. I dont know, i am just glad im not alone feeling like this, not that im happy anyone feels like this, cause it sucks, but its nice to know im not totally alone. I just wish i can talk to everyone and make a comment, and get to know everyone. I would like that.

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June 2, 2014

When i was younger, having no friends or not having anyone really like me, or just use you to get things. its doesnt dawn on you that things will always be bad. I use to think, "things will be better once im older" who knew that they don't, im mean i guess if you look at it as a prelude to things to come, i just didnt think it would be that much worse. who knew i wouldnt matter, and have nothing going for me

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