Posts tagged with "Loser"



August 8, 2017

I don't feel like going through everything as that depth of reflection makes me feel pretty sick, so I'll just brush the surface.

I'm over 30 and still living at home. Haven't dated in 7 years, or had any sexual contact in that time. The closest I get is when there's a sharp turn on the crowded bus I take to my dead end job. I do manual labour, at least that's what I tell anyone who asks, but what I really do is put things in boxes.

I have 0 friends. literally no one. I don't talk to my parents that much since everytime I do, I can see the disappointment on their faces.

I'm trying to get it together by going to school but from what I hear from the people that took the program, I'll end up at a help desk, helping people turn on their computers. I guess that's a step up or more like lateral movement.

I never thought I would be successful but I didn't think I would be a failure. I'm going to stop now, I feel sick.




January 25, 2017



July 6, 2016

-Pay Attention-

I've been a loser. For many years, for so long.

I'm 25

Even though i laughed a lot in my youth, even though i had people to respect and to feel respected from, but never knew who i was for real until i woke up from "easy life", and when i mean easy life is that life-style where you don't give a fuck about anything or anyone, included myself.

I was fat, i didn't respect myself, i started smoking when i was 13, got drunk almost every weekend during my teen years,i was bullied at school (But i always fought back) i got hardly beaten up when i was 19 during a night out, came back home but dont remember how i did...i don't remember who picked a fight with me...or if they knew me...i just woke up at hospital with my brother and dad next to me, they were surprised i didn't remember anything because they said just 1 hour before i was talking to them...feels like my mind just forgot everything to let the pain go away...

People cheated on me, People laughed at me, People treated me like shit, People USED me for their purpose... I made lots of mistakes, Said lot of wrong things...

 

But trust me..."A boxer gets hit many times until he learns how to fight properly"

THIS IS WHAT MAKES YOU FUCKING STRONG...

THIS IS WHAT MAKES YOU A TRUE MAN OR A TRUE WOMAN!!!!

The harder life hits you, the stronger you become, and this is for real.

The only way to achieve turning that pain you suffer into "wisdom muscle" is not to feel pity, shame or stuff everytime you fall down, if you fall down is because once you've been up, and as soon as you're up in the ring again...

Pain doesn't make you a loser, failure doesn't make you a loser, being bullied doesn't make you a loser.

Soldiers feel pain, fail and get hit...and they're still soldiers...warriors.

Without rainy days, sunny days wouldn't be that nice.

Nothing last forever....Trust me

Don't ask me how, because i don't know what did i do or how did i do it...but the truth is today im not a loser anymore.

A loser is not a tag other people set on you...a loser is a feeling,and a feeling becomes and attitude so it's YOU who make yourself a loser. You can control what you think...so you do with the words you use to speak. Huh?

Points i want you to know:

Rule #1 Once you respect yourself, everyone will respect you. AND THIS IS FUCKING TRUE.

(Actually this is what im experiencing now, everyone respects me)

Rule #2 Watch what you think. Turn that shit into positive, give up thoughts like:

"Oh shit, i'm a loser" "I don't deserve it" "I will not make it" and shit

Start using.

*"I'm the fucking boss in here, i've been thru all that pain and i may be stronger than many out there"

*"I really deserve it, Because i've fought so hard till now, because i managed to keep my self up until now"

*"I'm a soldier, and there's still battle to be fought, but it doesn't matter how deep i fall, it's my heart and my will who's gonna take me outta this hole"

Just think about what kind of thoughts a positive person has on mind.

Rule #3 Search for your dreams...what do you wanna become? Where do you wanna live? What do you wanna do in life? How do you wanna feel in the future?? DREEEEAMMMMMM!!!

Who said imaging was a waste of time????

Imaging gets you closer to your dreams, once you imagine something it's your choice to make it come true or not (please don't imagine yourself being spiderman or something like that, be realistic, thanks)

Rule #4 Healthy Body, Smart Soul

Train, it doesnt matter you don't feel like you will achieve to get fit or shit.

Just train, 1h a day, it'll make you become the wild animal you deserve to be.

Most feared animals are strong, intelligent and fast.

 

Rule #5 True people got respect for others.

Going around messing up with people doesnt make you feel better but an asshole.

You don't earn respect bullying, you earn respect achieving goals that in one hand will make you feel self-confident and in other hand will make you grow up as a person..."HUSTLE HARD!"

But remember...Golden RULE...If anyone fucks with you, make them pay for it, show how sure you are about your goals, about your ethic, moral. Dont exceed with the "payback". Just payback the own coin, if it doesnt work, go hard on 'em.

Once... I was a loser, and i'm not anymore.


  1. bigstupidpooper bigstupidpooper said: You're still a loser.


March 31, 2016

You want to know why I'm a loser? I care what others think about me. I will never have girlfriend, I will never be good at sports, I would be successful at a some occupation, but will be focus on that occupation. I suggest you unfollow me.




December 1, 2015

im 16 years old and i go to a school called boone grove high school, ive never been happy ever sence i was 9. im so fat and ugly i never got a girlfriend not ever my first kiss, so i guess thats a sign that i will be alone for ever. im so loney i got one friend, if i havent had him as a friend i would of killed myself. he is the only who helps me in this shit. i have a loving family i know that, i just dont want to talk to them about it, they will just flip shit and get pissed saying "stop that your better then this" im sure not. they say your smarter then this but they dont know thay, i get so fucking pissed when people say that like yeah im smart are you in my body do you EVERYTHING about me? no. so lets talk about me school... my school is indiana i dont care if i tell this. my school is all about sex,drugs,weed,beer all that stuff, i know high school that stuff happends i know that its just thats the only thing people talk about. its so fucking annoying i hear it everyday. well thats all i can think of, of my shitty life.. for now... -J




November 23, 2015

everyone hates me and says im not so wise even tho i thnbk i am vry wise. and when i invite them out they alwaqys say there to busy and then i cri and cut myself but not really but i put tomato source on my arm nd pretend and no one cares bc im such a loser :,((( 




November 23, 2015

Im very careless....i hate it.I lost my office key and I lost my thumb drive that have all my report to submitt this Friday.

 

If i lost my job...how am i going to feed my children.I'm getting paranoid every each day.

I owe bank alot of money...and my saving can last me 3 month.

Why i am like this......

 

Why i so careless




November 11, 2015

Ive been sitting here for 2 years wondering when life will come around for me. I fucking hate everything except the american dream. I want luxury things, i do. But im a piece of shit that doesnt do anything when will i get it. And why the fuck me? I have no friends, no GF lol who the fuck will wanna date a guy like me that doenst have anything going for himself at age 21. No job, no school, and no dream. Might as well donate my body to science put it to some good use. Im not a bad person at all I have the biggest heart in my whole family. I sit here hoping my time will come to find my dream, but I feel like I need approval for anything i wanna do. Not to be judged but why the fuck does it matter... at the end I will still be a piece of shit to people. Been used by my friends, family, by my own piece of shit dad. I am in debt. I have no idea how the fuck will i pay it off. Just got a parking ticket couple weeks ago because my shit ass didnt want to get up and move it becasue i was to tired and didnt care. Great paid 100 for that. Thanks wells Fargo for your credit card. More debt yay. Cant tell between when somethings good happening or it will become a disaster. Im skinny as fuck, no girl likes to date me they just leave because im skinny maybe, idk. I AM LITERALLY A MOVING SHIT. I SHOULD JUST MAKE A MOVIE ABOUT ME BEING LITERALY A MOVING SHIT. Now staring the life of a moving shit and how the day goes by for him.


  1. ChrisTopDude ChrisTopDude thinks you're a loser


October 30, 2015

yes i am just a fucking loser with no life. i hate my life i hate everything about life

and i hate myself. I really really wanna kill myself right now cuz life is shit

Fuck life its just boring boooooooring aas fuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

 




August 11, 2015

I have Hyperkenetic Disorder and that alone says im a fucking loser of Epic Proportions

Maybe i should have been drowned at Birth


  1. HopelesslyWeird HopelesslyWeird said: Probably yes. But they didn't know you would turn out that way at birth. Blame it on your parents.