Posts tagged with "fat"

July 6, 2016

-Pay Attention-

I've been a loser. For many years, for so long.

I'm 25

Even though i laughed a lot in my youth, even though i had people to respect and to feel respected from, but never knew who i was for real until i woke up from "easy life", and when i mean easy life is that life-style where you don't give a fuck about anything or anyone, included myself.

I was fat, i didn't respect myself, i started smoking when i was 13, got drunk almost every weekend during my teen years,i was bullied at school (But i always fought back) i got hardly beaten up when i was 19 during a night out, came back home but dont remember how i did...i don't remember who picked a fight with me...or if they knew me...i just woke up at hospital with my brother and dad next to me, they were surprised i didn't remember anything because they said just 1 hour before i was talking to them...feels like my mind just forgot everything to let the pain go away...

People cheated on me, People laughed at me, People treated me like shit, People USED me for their purpose... I made lots of mistakes, Said lot of wrong things...


But trust me..."A boxer gets hit many times until he learns how to fight properly"



The harder life hits you, the stronger you become, and this is for real.

The only way to achieve turning that pain you suffer into "wisdom muscle" is not to feel pity, shame or stuff everytime you fall down, if you fall down is because once you've been up, and as soon as you're up in the ring again...

Pain doesn't make you a loser, failure doesn't make you a loser, being bullied doesn't make you a loser.

Soldiers feel pain, fail and get hit...and they're still soldiers...warriors.

Without rainy days, sunny days wouldn't be that nice.

Nothing last forever....Trust me

Don't ask me how, because i don't know what did i do or how did i do it...but the truth is today im not a loser anymore.

A loser is not a tag other people set on you...a loser is a feeling,and a feeling becomes and attitude so it's YOU who make yourself a loser. You can control what you you do with the words you use to speak. Huh?

Points i want you to know:

Rule #1 Once you respect yourself, everyone will respect you. AND THIS IS FUCKING TRUE.

(Actually this is what im experiencing now, everyone respects me)

Rule #2 Watch what you think. Turn that shit into positive, give up thoughts like:

"Oh shit, i'm a loser" "I don't deserve it" "I will not make it" and shit

Start using.

*"I'm the fucking boss in here, i've been thru all that pain and i may be stronger than many out there"

*"I really deserve it, Because i've fought so hard till now, because i managed to keep my self up until now"

*"I'm a soldier, and there's still battle to be fought, but it doesn't matter how deep i fall, it's my heart and my will who's gonna take me outta this hole"

Just think about what kind of thoughts a positive person has on mind.

Rule #3 Search for your dreams...what do you wanna become? Where do you wanna live? What do you wanna do in life? How do you wanna feel in the future?? DREEEEAMMMMMM!!!

Who said imaging was a waste of time????

Imaging gets you closer to your dreams, once you imagine something it's your choice to make it come true or not (please don't imagine yourself being spiderman or something like that, be realistic, thanks)

Rule #4 Healthy Body, Smart Soul

Train, it doesnt matter you don't feel like you will achieve to get fit or shit.

Just train, 1h a day, it'll make you become the wild animal you deserve to be.

Most feared animals are strong, intelligent and fast.


Rule #5 True people got respect for others.

Going around messing up with people doesnt make you feel better but an asshole.

You don't earn respect bullying, you earn respect achieving goals that in one hand will make you feel self-confident and in other hand will make you grow up as a person..."HUSTLE HARD!"

But remember...Golden RULE...If anyone fucks with you, make them pay for it, show how sure you are about your goals, about your ethic, moral. Dont exceed with the "payback". Just payback the own coin, if it doesnt work, go hard on 'em.

Once... I was a loser, and i'm not anymore.

  1. bigstupidpooper bigstupidpooper said: You're still a loser.

December 1, 2015

im 16 years old and i go to a school called boone grove high school, ive never been happy ever sence i was 9. im so fat and ugly i never got a girlfriend not ever my first kiss, so i guess thats a sign that i will be alone for ever. im so loney i got one friend, if i havent had him as a friend i would of killed myself. he is the only who helps me in this shit. i have a loving family i know that, i just dont want to talk to them about it, they will just flip shit and get pissed saying "stop that your better then this" im sure not. they say your smarter then this but they dont know thay, i get so fucking pissed when people say that like yeah im smart are you in my body do you EVERYTHING about me? no. so lets talk about me school... my school is indiana i dont care if i tell this. my school is all about sex,drugs,weed,beer all that stuff, i know high school that stuff happends i know that its just thats the only thing people talk about. its so fucking annoying i hear it everyday. well thats all i can think of, of my shitty life.. for now... -J

November 23, 2015

Im very careless....i hate it.I lost my office key and I lost my thumb drive that have all my report to submitt this Friday.


If i lost my am i going to feed my children.I'm getting paranoid every each day.

I owe bank alot of money...and my saving can last me 3 month.

Why i am like this......


Why i so careless

May 4, 2015

I Have Nothing Going For Me

Hello, I'm a 20 year old female with no future. Just to summarize, I have been dropped from 2 colleges. One being a community college and the other a technical school. All you need to do to get into those schools is to graduate high school. That's how easy they are and I couldn't even keep my pathetic self together to complete those. I have no job and I still live with my mother and grandmother who both think I'm a failure anyways. I used to get straight As, but now I can't even get myself to show up to class. I don't know what interests me. I don't think anything does. I also don't know how to drive and don't have a license so I have to walk everywhere or get my mother to drive me. I'm so useless. I do have a boyfriend, but I'm so fat and ugly, I don't think I've ever NOT seen him check out any woman that walks his way. I can't make any man love me for me instead of spreading my legs to them. I don't really know what love is or how to act. I sit in my room and sleep about 16 hours a day and just stare at the wall or watch t.v. the other 8 hours. I have no friends because they all go out drinking or partying and I have no money or a car and they think I am boring so I obviously get left behind. When asking anyone to help me or just listen to me they just sit there, listen, nod, and change the subject. Maybe I just complain too much. I am a pitiful loser after all. When asking my mother if there is any chance I might have bipolar disorder or depression she replies with "no, you just complain a lot. get a hobby" I think she is right. Here, at home, I am not really aloud to leave. I am, but I will be ignored an "forgotten" if I do so. I am to be home every night to have the kitchen, dining room, and my room cleaned. I must also have dishes for 6 people washed all night and the fridge emptied every night. I do as I am told because it's the only time I get any compliments from them... if I am lucky. Cleaning for them is all I am good at.

  1. loserguy loserguy said: But my music is to real for the public I barely get views and also for some reason, women get intimidated or lose interest right away. Idk what it is. I guess I am to real. I don't play games. Women love games. Oh well hey I have myself. Im my best friend
  2. loserguy loserguy said: Hey at least your fat. I am a good looking guy. Fit, sexy body and very fun and funny but I still don't have a gf and get no pussy. I also don't ebven have a highschool diploma. I fail constantly. I'm also an amazing producer great musician
  3. LexLoser LexLoser said: I don't know about you but I could definitely do with someone to talk to. If youre interested hit me up.

May 1, 2015


I am a 20 year old female college freshmen stuck in a seemingly infinite loop. I am not good at anything and I could forgive myself if I were at least attractive. The only reason I am in college is because I want my family to not think I suck. Well, I do. I am failing miserably in my classes because I am lazy, and have no interest in anything. College, to me, is a futile attempt at justifying my meaningless existence  Sometimes I feel as though my life is a sick joke. I realize  that there are forget people worse off than me, but I'm too busy being selfish and living in a constant state of self pity. My family try to avoid conversation with me to avoid having to listen to my negative thoughts. So, I have nobody to talk to except my self. Starting in middle school, I have been in and out of therapy but to no avail. Medication didn't help either. It seems that I am stuck. They The only thing that appeases me is sitting in my room, playing the Sims 3 for hours on end. I am the epitome of a loser; I don't know what else to do. The only reason I haven't killed myself is due to a fear of hell. No social skills whatsoever. I don't have any friends left which sucks because once I flunk out of college, I'll be stuck at home knowing I am a complete and utter disappointment and waste of space. I've given up on the pursuit of love and accept that the only way I will be intamate with anyone is literally, in my dreams. I don't need to breed anyway. 

  1. LexLoser LexLoser said: Life is tough when you have no one to talk to. My email is if you need someone to listen.

August 7, 2014

Everything started out ok. Not perfect, but ok. My father left shortly after my birth. We were poor. VERY poor, by U.S.A standards. But I was very pretty, and had a good mother and great loving grandparents.

Then sh!t got real.

I can't for the life of me figure out why, but starting in 8th grade, I began to be hated and bullied by my peers. I'd always been bullied off and on by ugly girls, but that year was different. Everyone hated me. I have always had a pretty healthy self esteem, not conceited, but not down on myself. I believe that is because of the love and support I got from my mom & grandparents, but a life of being beat down has shaken me. I found that I am roundly disliked, I cannot figure out why. I've asked the few friends I have made, they say they can't figure it out either. School got so bad that I eventually quit, on the advice of my principle & my mother too.

The years went by, & here I am, a middle aged woman. Fragile health, so I cannot work or drive, no man after 2 failed marriages, the second worse than the first,... and that's saying something. Hardly any friends & the few I have live far from me. You know I never was good at making friends, but it gets even harder the older you get, & not working but staying home because I'm sick all the time doesn't help. I don't have any social anxiety, I'm not shy. I'm a loyal friend,  have been told I'm very funny. So why am I so disliked? Why am I so alone? Why were all the men in my life horrible nightmares?

Disability is a pittance. I live on $700. a month. Imagine that.

My once good looks are long gone. I'm old and fat now, and look as sick and disabled as I am. I live alone, suffer major depression that frightens me at times. They say everyone has their ups & downs, but I seem to only have downs. As bad as the present is, the future looks worse. I have nothing to look forward to but getting older and sicker, living in poverty, then dying alone.

It's not worth getting up in the morning.

  1. weaknoob weaknoob said: Youre a good person so atleast you have good karma and will go to heaven. Im an idiot who wasted my life

May 27, 2014

I realized I'm a loser when I had an anxiety and I started eating a lot. I turned fat, short, ugly girl and i'm totally invisible in this world.

Today I went to the theater to watch the new movie X-men: Days Of The Future Past. And I was standing in front of the cashier and waiting for him to finish the previous customer's order. Then I told him :" a mini combo please" but i think he didn't hear me. Two people next to me, first is a girl and he sold the popcorn combo the her first, I was in the middle, and an old guy who was shouting "GIVE ME A FAMILY COMBO AND TWO TEA BOTTLES". And then they left, I still there, he still didn't see me (maybe I was too short), then another girl walked in, next to me again, he ALMOST served her the popcorn until he looked at me and realized I was totally shocked and almost cried because I was there like almost 15 minutes. Oh so now he saw me, and sold me the popcorn combo. Thanks lord.

And I walked into the theather with my fellow classmates who always joking about my weight and my height, they took all the seat while I'm standing there and was very lost. They gave me the last seat in the line. And I was trying to get in my seat, I walked pass their seat and they were like "Oh my god you're so fat" and continued laughing. I stayed quiet for the rest of the movie. 

People always judge me, always hate me even when they first see me. Maybe because I'm not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not tall enough to get their respect. I feel like they always want to kick me out as soon as they can. They will and always see me as a loser in life, in school. In school, I'm a loser with no friends and surround by idiots and rude, mean people. In home, I love my family but my dad hates me and always swearing at me and insults me, when he drunk he will use an excuse to mock me and insult about my life.

Please, I want respect, even i'm not perfect, i'm not looking good. I just want people to respect me.

  1. sabotageous sabotageous said: So, you're fat: Have fun with it. Don't take it so seriously. Make jokes about it yourself. Don't be a sad sack. Why did you stand their 15 minutes? You've gotta shout at people and demand respect and attention.
  2. sabotageous sabotageous said: If you are fat and ugly, you should just try to own it. If people make fun of you because you are fat, it makes sense because you are fat. However, lots of fat and ugly people have friends, and some even become celebrities. Fix your attitude.